Sunny Days; Sweeping the Clouds Away

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Oh my goodness, today has to be one of the most beautiful Saturdays. Sunlight is shining through every single window in the house and I feel warmth and happiness!

I woke up and decided that myself and Aliyah needed a mommy-daughter hang out session so, we’ll be getting our fix for that at the movies today–we’re going see frozen [: she’s super excited and can’t wait–probably due more to the fact that I told her she could have popcorn and candy. Regardless, I can’t wait to hang out with her, she always brightens up the day! If I’m lucky, I can get her dressed in time to snap some pics of her outside in this beautiful autumn weather before the movie [: I really do hope everyone’s enjoying their holiday weekend! Positive thoughts to you all [:

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Quick Fix

First things first. Yes, I went “Black Friday” shopping on Thursday–at Target to be specific. Do I regret it? No. Do I consider myself a selfish, ungrateful, self absorbed person? No. I simply went for one thing and got exactly what I’d been wanting for almost a year now; a DSLR. A Nikon D3200 that also happened to come with an extra lens for a very inexpensive price. I was beyond excited! Sure I happened to do a little Christmas shopping for the kiddo and parentals too; couldn’t hurt anything.

Thanksgiving was a success as well! We hand a handful of family come in town for the holiday and that was nice–we hardly get to see them because we all live so far away. Plenty of food, plenty of laughs, plenty of quality time–somewhere in between all of that was work today as well. Nothing to complain about though; we were extremely slow.

I am having a slight bit of difficulty with my computer here lately and it’s driving me crazy–like to the point of where I won’t even get on and write a post. My Netflix is acting jank, my posts won’t let me add media or save a draft; the browser just spirals into infinity and never stops. It bothers me. I intended to post some photos from Thanksgiving but alas, I cannot. I’m really hoping to figure out whatever it is that’s going wrong–or find someone to figure it out for me, at a steep price I’m sure. Regardless, the frustration has set in, and tiredness is upon me. Anyone with ideas or suggestions, feel free to post comments!

It’s a Creative Kind of Journey

Welcome to Week Two of the month-long Carnival of Creative Mothers to celebrate the launch of The Rainbow Way: Cultivating Creativity in the Midst of Motherhood

by Lucy H. Pearce


Today’s topic is Creative Heroines. Do read to the end of this post for a full list of carnival participants. 



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December 4th: Creative Inheritance.

December 11th: The Creative Process.


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You know what, it’s 8:46 am Wednesday morning and at about 7:00 pm last night I had made the conscientiousness decision to not go through with starting or finishing the carnival. I had given up because I’d become so overwhelmed by everything that was going on this week. I felt so busy and emotionally tired that I decided “There’s no way I have time to put in the effort I want, and I know if I’m going to do this it has to be perfect”, which is one of my problems altogether in itself; always aiming for perfection, when perfection doesn’t really exist.

Then something strange happened. I woke up at about 5 something this morning and saw that someone commented on a previous blog post I had written a few days ago–“The Other Side”–and it was from none other than Lucy Pearce herself reminding me that, yeah we all feel a little crazy sometimes and it’s completely normal. I think it might of been then that I told myself that I would start this and finish it just like I had intended.

I never know where my creativeness is going to take me. Half the time it’s a mystery to me or a fleeting idea that I just barley miss grabbing a hold of. When I do, grasp it though, I take hold of it and embrace it. I let it take me where I never thought I’d go and find myself amazed that I could do something so–well–creative. Having such a gift of creativity leaves me feeling so eternally grateful because I know it’s something that’s fragile; that has to be nurtured and respected.

I’m going to be late for work; I already know. It doesn’t seem to bother me, because more than anything, right now, in this moment I feel so amazingly exhilarated and proud of myself for choosing this. It’s not as perfect as I wanted it to be. Matter of fact, it’s not perfect at all. It’s frazzled, and jumbled thoughts that I just now put together in this post. I’m throwing it out there and hoping for the best. There’s a beauty in that; freeing yourself from constrictions and boundaries that we put there ourselves, and then tearing them down momentarily just to be in that moment.

This creative journey that I’m on–well, don’t ask me where I’m going because I don’t know–it gives me these glimpses of how great I could be. It inspires me to do better than what I’ve done before, and it reminds me that the best part about all of it, is sharing it with every person I can reach out to; the world if I can.


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  • Carnival host and author of The Rainbow Way, Lucy at Dreaming Aloud celebrates her creative fairy godmothers, and gives thanks for the creative blessings that each has gifted her.
  • And on her other site, The Happy Womb, Lucy expresses her sadness at a lack of real-life female mentors and Wise Women in her life so far.
  • Becky at Soul Sunshine shares the creativity heroines– her Saviors– who reactivated her creative heart after a near-20-year-hiatus.
  • Lucy Pierce from Soulskin Musings explores the ways in which three artists have inspired her to follow the inner wild of her own creative narrative and it’s interface with the forces of nature and of Spirit.
  • Kae at The Wilde Womb shares how she invokes her inner child when summoning creative juices. 
  • Zoie at TouchstoneZ reflects on the women who have inspired her most. 
  • Alex at The Art of Birth shares her Journey of a Creative Mama which is all about liberating the Feminine through Art.
  • Laura at Authentic Parenting is grateful to those women who have inspired her.
  • Who most inspires Georgie at Visual Toast? She’ll tell you here!
  • Please come to the dinner party, invites Nicki at Just Like Play, where we will celebrate Judy Chicago, art, womanhood, and the creative kitchen table.
  • Becky at Raising Loveliness shares her creative heroines.
  • Dawn Collins at The Barefoot Home honors three artistic mothers in the post:her strong willed Nona, her free spirited mother and the best solo artist ever… Mother Earth.
  • Angela at Peach Coglo looks to her grandma and granny as her creative heroines when the creative going gets tough.
  • Jennifer at Let Your Soul Shine wears odd socks proudly!
  • Kelly at Knittingandthings shares how she turned her grief into helping others  
  • Biromums remember their biggest creative heroines.
  • Darcel at The Mahogany Way shares who inspires her.
  • Aimée at Creativeflutters discusses which artists influence her in her creative journey. Find out how she nourishes herself as a creative mother, and finds the time to help other moms on their journeys.
  • Creativity is something that’s always meant the most to Jasmine at Brown Eyed Girl and she can’t wait to take the journey in identifying herself and supporting other moms with it as well.
  • KatyStuff has a mother who allowed her to make mud pies while she knit or embroidered near by.
  • Ali Baker is a creative mama to twin girls who reignited her creative energy and sense of who she used to be by just doing it and creating whatever needs to be created in an imperfect way. 
  • Liz at Reckless Knitting remembers her biggest inspirations.
  • Milochka  at Art Play Day shares her creative heroines.

The Other Side

There’s another part of me that’s rebellious and defensive, blunt and coarse, crazy and erratic. I crave it sometimes. It allows me to be detached from reality and something about that comforts me in a very distorted way.

I think more than anything, it’s a defense mechanism–and I can’t explain to you how, you’d have to sit me down with a psychiatrist to figure that one out–but it happens. I feel in control when I feel like I can shut things out; or off, however I’m having to deal with it. Being unstable is the worst. I have to be in control; always.

I like the other side of myself. She’s crazy and wild; too carefree. She jumps for the thrill of falling.

She keeps me strong, and she steps in when I become too fragile to handle everything else that becomes too much. She picks up the dead weight with the flick of her hair while wearing leather jackets and black knee high boots. She gets her hands dirty, brushes it off, and still walks off looking as if nothing had ever touched her. Oh, she wears red lipstick too. Not the bright red kind, the blood red kind.

I may be completely crazy; I understand this. I won’t apologize for what keeps me sane though.

This is just the other side of me.

I was never insane, except upon occasions when my heart was touched.” -Edgar Allen Poe

 

 

Sensibly Senseless

It’s almost becoming ridiculous that I keep letting myself fall short with the whole remembering-to-post-everyday situation. It’s not that I don’t want to, just that I’ll either forget or let time slip away from me. Nonetheless, I refused to let it happen tonight.

Myself and a group of friends went to the premier for the Hunger Games: Catching Fire movie last night, and all I can basically tell you is: OUTSTANDING! That movie did the book so much justice that I was almost too shocked to find how pleased I was by it and how well they did with following it all. The ending was even great! Not what I expected, but it definitely left you amped up and ready to set a few things on fire in the name of justice. I loved every moment of it! A must see for readers and fans, and even those who may not have been a fan before, after watching you will be.

Work was busy today, of course, it’s Friday. Won’t complain, because it could have been much worse. I got to hang out with my dad at Starbucks, and then with my sister and Lu at Texas Roadhouse. Not too shabby for a Friday night if I must say so myself. I need to remind myself to go shopping for my secret Santa–first gift goes out next Friday. I also need to stop by the mall and get my screen replaced on my phone (remember the one that shattered) because it’s definitely time–I can hardly text a word without seeming like I’m intoxicated.

And now I’m thinking that I could probably go to bed right now, because I am extremely tired–I’ve been wanting to pass out all day. I’ve got a hair appointment at 9 am and I need to be on time, because something must be done to this head of mine. Hoping you all are having a great weekend! They’re way too short, so make the most of em.